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Firstborn : a memoir / Lauren Christensen.

Summary:

"A memoir of love, familial bonds, and grief that defies consolation, which the author began writing the day she lost her daughter in utero"-- Provided by publisher.

Record details

  • ISBN: 9780593831816 (hardcover)
  • Physical Description: 191 pages : illustrations ; 22 cm
  • Publisher: New York : Penguin Press, 2025.
Subject: Christensen, Lauren, 1967-
Christensen, Lauren, 1967- > Family.
Fetal death > New York (State) > New York.
Loss (Psychology)
Motherhood.
Mothers > North Carolina > Chapel Hill > Biography.
Pregnant women > North Carolina > Chapel Hill > Biography.
Stillbirth > Psychological aspects.
Genre: Biographies.
Personal narratives.

Available copies

  • 1 of 1 copy available at Tsuga Consortium.

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  • 0 current holds with 1 total copy.
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Cookstown Branch 155.937085 Chr 31681010411270 NONFIC Available -

  • Baker & Taylor
    A heartbreaking yet hopeful memoir of love, loss, and resilience, recounting the joy of impending parenthood, the devastating loss of a child and the profound journey of grappling with grief while finding meaning in life’s deepest paradoxes Illustrations.
  • Penguin Putnam
    “An achingly beautiful testament to fierce loss, fierce love and fierce resilience.” —People Magazine

    “You will find yourself rationing out pages to spend more time in the glow of Christensen’s luminous prose and inextinguishable love. A triumph.” —Oprah Daily (best new books to read this spring)

    A lapidary memoir of losing a child before she can be born, which the author began writing the day she came home from the hospital—an intimate story about our most searing losses and brightest hopes


    “Some days I still think this is all just a sad story I’ll tell Simone one day.”

    Lauren Christensen is a thirtysomething editor in New York City when she meets her future husband, Gabe, a writer with whom she falls in love right away. Her beloved grandfather is dying, but the young couple is bringing new life into the family: Lauren and Gabe joyfully discover she is pregnant with their daughter, Simone.

    As Lauren faces the prospect of becoming a parent, she learns to let go of the fear of abandonment and need for control instilled in her by growing up with a largely absent father and a high-powered mother who was often away on business. Lauren and Gabe are incandescently happy in their exuberant, messy, beautiful shared world. But just weeks after their wedding, they learn that their worst nightmare has come true: Simone is dying in the womb.

    In fierce, tender, spellbinding prose, Firstborn brings us to the very heart of the human paradox: How do we live when everyone who makes up our world will someday be gone? And how can we mourn when the cosmic order has been turned upside down—when a child dies before she is born?

    As she comes up against the brutal limits of maternal healthcare and the limitlessness of her love for her daughter, Lauren Christensen finds a key, generous and brave, in which to share her loss, a testimony whose diamond-like brilliance refracts a universal light.

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